Being naive sometimes is the way to happiness.

2011-11-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

I hope my life stays this way.
I like feeling happy, cheerful, loved.
:D

2011-10-17T19:48:00.000+08:00

怎样才能让你关心的人多关心你一些，
多在意你一些呢？

难道，想要自己关心的人多去关心，在意你有错吗？

Feeling like I'm forever alone, forever emotional.

Or... did i really did something wrong ?...

2011-09-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

I hate it how sometimes the most important people around you doesn't think you are as important.
Feeling so worthless.

Birth Chart!

2011-08-21T20:38:00.009+08:00

WARNING!!! LONG POST AHEAD!

http://astro.cafeastrology.com/cgi-bin/astro/natal
Went to this web, Gives info about astrology!
I went to read, Its super long!

When the sentence is red, I strongly agree to it!
When the sentence is blue, I strongly disagree!
When sentence is in black, it just simply means neutral, unapplicable yet, not sure of...

There some truths where i don't wanna accept it, but i guess i just have to!
Everybody's imperfect in some way or two, right ?
Its not just me!
And probably some truths you see alr want vomit, i also don't care la huh! Lol.
I think true can alrdy!

P.S. Some things are taken out, cause abit messy ah!
P.P.S I also dk what the house thing is!

Here goes....

The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

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Sun in Leo

There's an unmistakably regal air to Solar Leos. These are dignified--even noble--folk. Leos have a reputation for being conceited, but think again. Leos do feel important, but this generally takes the form of wanting to change the world in some way--to make the world a better place. They are generally motivated by affection for people, and often have big dreams and plans to make people happy.

Generally, Leos are hard-working. After all, they are attracted to the good things in life, and they know they have to work to get them. It is sometimes difficult to imagine Leos as go-getters if you happen to catch them in one of their languid moods. These people can sleep in, laze around, and luxuriate for long periods of time. However, when they do get to work, they do it with intensity and determination. In this way, they are not unlike their symbol, the lion. The worst thing you can do to a Leo is accuse them of bad intentions. Displaying behavior that makes them think you don't appreciate them runs a close second. These happy, jovial people become mighty hurt when others don't see them for their noble intentions.

Loyal, and sometimes rather traditional, Leos are, after all, a fixed sign. They'll hold on to situations and people for a very long time before they give up. There is an unmistakable idealism to Leo's view of the world and the people in it. Often, Leos have a very noble inner code that they answer to. Although on the surface, Leos appear rather confident, they can actually be some of the most humble souls around. They are the first to blame themselves when something goes wrong. Once again, it's the Leonine self-importance at work, and this characteristic works in unexpected ways. Instead of being the conceited, self-absorbed show-offs of reputation, they are usually very self-aware, self-conscious, and, yes, even humble.

Short description:

She is masterful, likes authority, aspires towards an ideal. She likes to give advice. She is honest, frank, loyal, open and sincere.

Weaknesses: pride, vanity, arrogance, presumption and disdain of others.

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Leo ascendant Pisces

Sun in V

You want to be noticed for your unique and special qualities and your creativity. You are happiest when you are expressing yourself in a special way and attention comes your way as a result. You have a flair for drama and/or sports. You are proud of your fun-loving attitude towards life. As you demonstrate your ability to shine, avoid grabbing center stage all of the time. Your happy disposition is enough to get noticed, but do find creative ways to express yourself, as this is the path to true happiness for you.

195 Conjunction Sun - Mercury

Because your ego and your mind are aligned, you possess much mental energy. You are always in a position to think about what you want, and in many ways, this is an interruption of the will. You are highly intelligent with a great drive to communicate with other. You invest a lot of pride in your intellectual capacities. You may not always listen as well as you speak, however! You might be too busy thinking about what to say next. But you are very curious and although you enjoy expressing yourself, you usually don't dominate conversations completely. As far as studying or learning goes, you are better off reading the material than listening to a teacher. These traits come from a strong need to take an active role in communications. It is very hard for you to passively listen and absorb information.

Your opinions are usually strong and you are an independent thinker. You tend to be proud of your opinions and thoughts, and might easily get a bruised ego if you are not "heard", if your opinions are pushed aside or ignored, or if your opinions are criticized. You are expressive and possibly a very animated speaker. You are also very witty and others enjoy your playful and sometimes mischievous sense of humor.

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The Moon represents the emotional responses, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.

Moon in Cancer

Short description:

She is likeable and sociable. Very sensitive to environmental conditions and surroundings. She likes home, habits, comfort and her little world. Very caring and protective of loved ones.

Weaknesses: subject to indolence, inertia. She is impressionable and too sensitive. Family problems.

Moon in IV

She likes family life, peace and quiet -- she likes to stay at home, surrounded by loved ones, in agreeable circumstances. Strongly influenced by the mother.

You long for a sense of true belonging, but you may be quite restless in your search. You might change residence frequently, or simply feel the need to make many changes in your home. Moving frequently may be a healthy thing if it keeps you emotionally stimulated, but if you find that you do so on whims and later regret the changes, you might want to treat it as a symptom of emotional unrest--as a sign that you are in a constant search for the perfect mood and setting, when in fact a feeling of belonging should be worked on from the inside out, not the outside in! Some of you might remain rather immature on an emotional level, never wanting to truly grow up and take care of yourself. Attachments to your past, traditions, and family are strong.

-255 Opposition Moon - Uranus

She has a feverish, non-constructive restlessness. She is too susceptible. Her life is full of change. She is irritable and stubborn at times due to an inner restlessness that is hard to satisfy. She has difficulty concentrating on a job. Nervous strain. Her friendships are like her professional and love life - sometimes unstable. There is a strong need for closeness, but when people get too close, she gets cagey, as she values personal freedom just as much.

-315 Opposition Moon - Neptune

She lacks firmness, and can be a sucker for a sob story! She likes to live in a dream, in the world of imagination, and can hope so much that reality checks can be brutal.

103 Trine Moon - Pluto

She wavers between a rich and successful domestic life and social success. She has difficulty in succeeding in both. Very perceptive and given to psychoanalyzing people. A strategist. Powerful emotions and intense feelings.

23 Trine Moon - Ascendant

She has a good influence on the family, which loves and helps the person. She likes travelling, movement, change. She likes contact and is open to other people.

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Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.

Mercury in Leo

She wants to know the bottom line, and is good at scoping out a situation and finding answers to problems. In fact, she is a problem-solver, and will spend a lot of time helping others solve problems if need be. Very friendly and usually positive, she can be charming in a warm way. Enthusiastic speaker, speaks with authority and sincerity. Great sense of organization. Playful. Likes to take risks in jest and for amusement. Might sometimes come across too strongly or offend sensitive folk with a somewhat authoritative tone.

Mercury in V

Taste for intellectual games, sports that require skill and finesse. She is very curious about everything, even in love. She likes children.

You tend to use your voice, whether written or spoken, as a means of creative self-expression. You can be witty and humorous, an engaging communicator, and a fun friend. You love playing games, especially ones that employ your intellect. You love tricks, jokes, plays on words, and mimicry. You might be skilled at impersonations. Some of you could be clever at lying. You might have a tendency to promise more than you can deliver, or overstate your case. In some way, you are very entertaining with the spoken and/or written word. Communication and intellectual rapport is most attractive to you when it comes to romance. In some cases, this can indicate more than one lover at once. Curiosity can be a strong motivator for making social and romantic contact. You might also take much pride in your children's intellectual abilities and talents. You would make a good teacher, as you are very curious about how people learn and can come up with many ideas that allow you to teach others creatively.

-92 Square Mercury - Jupiter

She is frivolous and imprudent. She lacks judgement, and is full of self-importance. She has difficulty in realizing her plans, because she lacks clarity and rates her qualities higher than they are.

9 Trine Mercury - Ascendant

She is intelligent, with quick and lively reflexes. She is preoccupied by her circle, likes to exchange ideas with her friends, but also with strangers. Of an open nature, she goes out to others.

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Venus represents an interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.

Venus in Virgo

Short description:

She is very devoted, does not show emotions: she and doesn't always let herself go, either through fear of ridicule or through fear of not being loved in return as much as she loves. She is therefore sometimes too undemonstrative. May give off the sense that her love is not for free. Caring but worries that she is not exciting enough. Careful with money.

Venus in VII

Her fate depends a lot on marriage. Marries for love, children, happy emotional life.

You live for relationships. It is hard for you to think about being alone. Harmony is most important to you, so it is unlikely you will attempt to dominate a lover. You are a peacemaker, sometimes going to great lengths to achieve a balanced, harmonious relationship. Be careful not to bend over backwards just to keep the peace--you may be taken advantage of. Your marriage partner may be especially attractive, charming, or well off. You are extremely attractive, agreeable, and charming, drawing others to you magnetically. You need an unusual amount of contact and exchange with a partner, and might find that you feel completely lost without one. Some of you might quickly enter into partnerships, perhaps too quickly and neither equipped nor prepared for the responsibilities that a long-term relationship demands. In some cases, there can be a shallow or materialistic interest in partners. Your hips and lower back may be special erogenous zones for you, or they may be especially attractive body parts.

-8 Square Venus - Mars

While she is passionate, she likes carnal desires and voluptuousness above all. She may go to excess and is often unsatisfied.

Whether it's an infatuation or a full-blown love affair, relationships get you out of bed in the morning. You are passionate and seem to need an active romantic and sexual life to drive you. Often, this area of life is somewhat challenging, especially in youth. As much as you want to be involved in a passionate affair, your timing can be off and/or it's difficult to find a relationship that mirrors your strong desires and expectations. Especially when you are young, there can be a real awkwardness with your social skills--this may or may not be apparent to others.

You are highly creative and generally are driven to express that creativity. Your passion for romance is often channeled into your creative output. For example, challenges in relationships may be a large part of the drive behind your poetry, music, or other art.

Love and hate are very much mixed together for you. You are prone to love-hate relationships with others, likely because your passions are such that the old saying "there's a fine line between love and hate" rings especially true for you. Some level of competitiveness, anger, frustration, or angst is present in your romantic relationships. Although you are quick to anger, you are generally just as quick to forget about it.

23 Trine Venus - Uranus

Independent in love. Her love life is rich, but possibly with passing love affairs. She tires quickly and is scared of losing her liberty. Traditional marriage may not be for her. She has that little something that attracts the opposite sex: she likes amorous adventures, she is romantic. She is the eternal lover and perhaps is unfaithful if she has a serious relationship. She likes art, anything new.

The ability to get along with--and accept--people from all walks of life as friends is strong with this position. She can readily see through insincerity in others. In relationships, tolerance is the most important "ingredient" to her. Her sexual preferences are somewhat unconventional, and she won't be happy with a partner who tries to limit her sexual expression. She is usually quite capable of maintaining relationships that require a great deal of freedom and tolerance, such as long-distance romances or set-ups in which partners are unable to see each other consistently. Her style in love is somewhat free and breezy, and noncommittal. She quite naturally accepts the idea that her partner might need some personal space and freedom.

9 Trine Venus - Neptune

Her professional life is unstable. She has a taste for the Arts, is a dreamer, is easily influenced and romantic. She is emotional and very sensitive.

Romantic, creative, gentle, and adaptable, you naturally express the finer qualities of mysterious and dreamy Nshieptune in your love relationps. Your imagination is rich and your fantasy world well-developed. You are turned off by rudeness and crudeness, and are drawn to beauty in its many forms. You are very giving and generous, but may be a little on the submissive side, or sometimes downright lazy, failing to take the initiative when situations call for it.

43 Sextile Venus - Pluto

Her emotional and sex life is powerful and rich. She lives out truly passionate love affairs.

-68 Opposition Venus - Ascendant

She goes to excess in her pleasures, frequents doubtful company. She lacks good taste. She is very spendthrift, but spreads her money around her circle. Her friends are more self-interested than sincere.

-34 Square Venus - Midheaven

She is vain and jealous. Both married life and professional life are difficult with such a character.

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Mars represents the desire for action and physical energy.

Mars in Gemini

Mars in III

Lively spirit, alert and ingenious but sarcastic, critical, provocative. She is quarrelsome. Expresses herself easily, does what she wants: success is at the end of the road. She is capable and acts quickly.

You speak your mind quite readily, sometimes shooting from the hip when it comes to expressing your ideas and opinions. You tend to know a lot about a variety of subjects, and like to share that knowledge with others (sometimes too forcefully!). You are generally very direct and clear when it comes to communicating. You can easily get worked up about what others might think are trivial matters. You love a good debate. Whether you know it or not, or no matter your intentions, you can be provocative in your communication style. You are likely gifted with manual dexterity, although you might easily become impatient with tasks. At your best, you are enthusiastic, animated, and lively in the way you express yourself, and this can inspire others. You will fervently defend your opinions and beliefs, as well as your family and childhood.

-10 Square Mars - Ascendant

She is quarrelsome, critical and violent. Her success is obtained by dubious means. (?!?!)

-48 Opposition Mars - Midheaven

She suffers professional setbacks because she is too impulsive, imprudent and lacks forethought.

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Jupiter represents expansion and grace.

Jupiter in Scorpio

She attracts the most good fortune when she puts her "all" into a project or undertaking, and uses her magnetic powers to heal others. Enthusiastic for deeper studies and meanings, all that is taboo or mysterious, psychology. Values decisiveness, intensity, willpower, commitment, and strength. Very strong problem solver who cuts to the chase. Science and research may be prosperous avenues.

Jupiter in VIII

She is interested in the occult. She can work in a field associated with death e.g. as a funeral director.(WHAT!) Marriage can help financially, the spouse having money.

40 Trine Jupiter - Saturn

She is serious, patient, honest, hard-working, orderly. Her judgment is good and she thinks things over. She pursues her objectives to the bitter end, usually knowing when to choose the right moment. She is upright and respects the law.

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Saturn represents contraction and effort.

Saturn in Pisces

Misanthropic, with a sullen humor. She likes to live in solitude, in contemplation. Likes to work alone.

Saturn in XII

She likes quiet and solitude above everything. She looks for work (or can work) alone, without being bothered. She hates chatting, outside noises.

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Uranus represents individual liberty, egoistic liberty.

Uranus in Capricorn

A great battler. She has so much power, that one thinks nothing can defeat her. Her mission in society, in the world means everything to her.

Uranus in X

She must have an independent career, with no routine, which satisfies her need to move around, travel and which must in particular have an element of risk attached. She is eccentric.

156 Conjunction Uranus - Neptune

69 Sextile Uranus - Pluto

She fights to improve her daily life, she is persevering.

0 Sextile Uranus - Ascendant

She is always changing, is unstable. She is ready to innovate, to change everything. She is inventive.

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Neptune represents transcendental liberty, non-egoistic liberty.

Neptune in Capricorn

She is discerning, wise and sensible.

Neptune in X

She is a very idealistic person, and wants to see her ideals, hopes, and dreams made concrete and real in the everyday world. She is driven to put ideals into action.She has great ambition, which sometimes obsesses her. She always wants to check work already done, she is terrified of being less than perfect.

2 Sextile Neptune - Pluto

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Pluto represents transformations, mutations and elimination.

Pluto in Scorpio

Great sexual activity.

11 Trine Pluto - Ascendant

She has will-power and ambition, and likes to have her own way.

House I is the area of self identity. The ascendant is a symbol of how one acts in life. It is the image of the personality as seen by others, and the attitude that one has towards life.

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Leo ascendant Pisces

Ascendant in Pisces

House II is the area of material security and values. It rules money and personal finances, sense of self-worth and basic values, personal possessions.

House II in Taurus:
Financially usually comfortable, but there can be a tendency to splurge on luxury items. However, she is unlikely to go wanting. The house where Venus is placed can show areas where money can be made. Holds on to things. Sentimental about personal possessions.

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House III is the area of social and intellectual learning.

House III in Gemini:
She adapts well to any kind of change, and enthusiastically. She doesn't like monotony. Early family life was busy, and usually this position suggests a number of siblings. Work in communications or the media is possible. Writing talent is also probable. Reads and thinks a lot, but is not very focused. Has a lot of projects going at once.

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House IV is the area of home, family, roots, and deep emotions/sense of self-worth.

House IV in Gemini:
Impossible to stay in one place, frequently changes home. If the job is monotonous, she will often change firm. The ideal profession would be one offering a lot of change, moving around, meeting lots of new people. An equally erratic love life is to be expected.

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House V is the area of creative self-expression, romance, entertainment, children, and gambling.

House V in Cancer:
She will often be in love, up until the day she meets the chosen one. She is not a gambler, by any means. Is safe in a casino. Takes great pleasure in home life. Hobbies may be cooking, sewing, and other Cancer-related pastimes. Very affectionate lover, but private and sensitive.

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House VI is the area of learning by material transaction.

House VI in Leo:
Ability to command, authority at work. Weak point: the heart and arteries.

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House VII is the area of one-to-one relationships such as marriage and partnership, and of social and intellectual action.

House VII in Virgo:
Marriage more of the head than the heart, which will last in spite of a few hiccups. The spouse is honest, hard-working, intelligent and cunning.

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House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul.

House VIII in Scorpio:
Lots of vivacity and hastiness put life in danger too often, and one of these times could be too much.

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House IX is the area of learning that shapes the identity.

House IX in Sagittarius:
Long voyages abroad. Might settle permanently in a foreign country. Intellectual work, mathematical mind.

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House X is the area of material action. The Mid-heaven represents the work one will do in his life, the place one will take in the world of society. It becomes more important as one grows older

House X in Sagittarius:
Job involving travel, especially abroad, and if possible with some risk attached. One of the professions.

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House XI is the area of search for social and intellectual security.

House XI in Capricorn:
Stable friendships with composed, wise people, from whose experience of life she can profit in her own life.

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House XII is the area of education and of emotion.

House XII in Aquarius:
Friends can bring quite a lot of problems.

#fail

2011-08-18T20:21:00.001+08:00

I feel like I've failed.
Failed as a daughter, failed as a pet owner
Failed as a student, failed as a friend,
Failed as a person.
I'm not emo-ing. Just .... reflecting.
For the past 17 years of my life, I've done nothing to make myself or anyone proud.
Like a good-for-nothing.
There's like nothing good about me.

I admire people who have dreams and aspirations, and they realy work towards it.
Unlike me, blur of the past, confused in the present and unsure of the future.
No goals, no aspirations, easily affected by the slightest setback, sensitive.

I start to feel that I'm actually a hypocrite.
I'm not as good as what others see me as.
I'm much worse off than what I pictured myself to be.
I'm selfish, an attention seeker, a hypocrite, and a loser.
Am I ?

I wished I could google about how people feel about me.
I really want to know, what kind of person am I, in people's eyes.
What I've done right, and what went wrong...
So that I can change to be a better person - I mean it when I say I would change. (At least I try..)

Am I a bad friend ?
Am I an emo kid in class ?
Am I seen as a two-faced person ?
Am I hated by someone ?
Am I a pain in the ass ?
Am I the one, someone wished, I'd disappear from their life ?

I'm sick and tired of my life.
Sick of all the pretense, at home.
Sick of all the lies I'm constantly saying. - Just to save myself from all the guilt and stigma.
Sick of school and constant bad results.
Sick of feeling like an outsider everywhere i go.

I want to be successful.
I want to score good grades.
I want to get into university.
I want a complete life.
I want my 17 year old life. - not an 8 year old stucked at home

"God has cracked a joke on me."

2011-08-07T14:18:00.004+08:00

I really felt like a joke.
Silly me.

No one could really understand how much I hate being myself.
Yes, I hate myself. I hate my life.
Whoever thought being mixed blood was cool or being in an interracial family is fun,
You can go bang wall now.
Maybe I used to ~~hate god~~ and his existance.
Thats why he's fooling me now.
I like to hurt intentionally hurt myself, emotionally. So that my heart can die. And I'll stop holding on to the impossible. And move on. Cause I still don't believe what i see.
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Life goes on. Still have tons of homework to do even if I'm not in the mood. -.-

Twitter Quotes Addict !

2011-08-01T17:20:00.005+08:00

"You feel lonely not when no one cares about you,
but when someone you expect to doesn't give a damn"

I love twitter. They tell me so much facts about life.
The kind of feeling like 'Phew, I'm not the only one feeling this way.'
It lets me know what to cherish and what not to hold on to anymore.
I've lost things that I thought wasn't important.
And somethings that I thought was important, isnt.
I'm no longer waiting for anything to happen,
Nor am I gonna try to change anything.
I just wanna enjoy life now. :)

Turning 17 soon.
For the past 16 years, I've always been trying my best to offer everything I have to people around me.
Whether it's my mum, family, friends. I put in 110% in every kind of relationship.
I always try to please people.
But I have difficulty expressing myself.
Even how much I care, I can never put it fully to actions or words.
Sometimes I wished I could give someone a hug, but it just feels so cheesy. Like weird.
But I care. I really do.
And I don't know why I always ended up feeling alone.
Feeling like I've lost myself. I don't know who am I. And I'm always so far away of who i want to be.

Now, I wanna live for myself. I wanna be my own priority.
I need to find me and my confidence back.
I want to be what a real Leo should look and behave like.
A lion is supposed to be fierce, confident, a potential leader.
I just feel like a sick cat now.
I don't want to change, I'm me. I only want to find myself, back.:D

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Weekend was enjoyable one! Hehe, like finally for soooo many weeks!
I wished every weekend could be like this!
No more stay-at-home-and-rot-television-laptop-television-laptop-sleep-eat-shit-television-laptop-sleep.....
Or maybe I should try heading to library to study next time instead of studying at home.

Going to napnap! Dinner later and homework time.
Mob. *Death stare* Don't think I'll be able to complete it.
& Math.
Need to study reallyreally hard.
But i keep thinking of mahjong! :x

Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift

2011-07-19T20:39:00.001+08:00

This song describes my feeling now. :D

I'm on my guard for the rest of the world.
But with you, I know its no good.
I could wait patiently but....
I really wish you would

Drop everything now,
Meet me in the pouring rain,
Kiss me on the side walk,
Take away the pain,
Cause I see sparks fly, Whenever you smile....

Fight for my happiness :D

Sugar Gliders

2011-07-16T16:29:00.001+08:00

These are sugar gliders. Cute max! Though I haven't seen one real life before.
I wanted to rear them. But realised they are not in the approved list of pets in Singapore. ):
I'd guess I've to stick to the idea of getting a guinea pig or rabbit next time!
Not now when I have dozens of hamsters to takecare of and cages to clean! :O

Failure is the mother of all successes.

2011-07-15T03:51:00.002+08:00

Got all my exams results back. And I failed everything except Chinese.
Kinda sian when I saw the papers, esp. Math. Last minute study, can't blame anyone.
Still expectations were there.
I know I wouldn't do well..., but I never knew it be so bad!
Haha, kinda new to me. I've never scored this bad before!

Hehe :P Nvm, first exam in MI... Next time will be better!

To pass 2 H2s need to score at least a B for promo 2!
Pray hard & study smart. I can do it!

If, really can't then I might consider going to poly already.
It might be one year wasted but it beats wasting 3 years(or 4) and not having an A-lvl cert.

Reflection

2011-07-10T22:02:00.005+08:00

Seems like every girls have their own clique,
their own soulmate,
their own girlfriend,
their own bff...
or even boyfriend.

But I don't have one.

Pathetic huh.

At moments of confusion, sadness, happiness, agony..,
I don't even know who to confront.
Sometimes I feel I brought this to myself.
Cause I couldn't blame anyone. There wasn't anyone to blame either.

I just felt all alone.
I wanna go out, but I don't wanna go out alone.
I wanna ask ppl out, but i dw to feel like a burden to others.
Sometimes opportunities come knocking on the door,
But i choose to ignore them. Cause I forgot the feeling of carefree.
I just want to enjoy life like other teenagers do.

Seriously, I don't need a boyfriend.
I just need someone who can constantly be there for me.
Accompany me when I feel like going out...
Without the feeling that I'm being a burden.
Someone who isn't that irritating.
Someone nice. Someone that i can rely on.
Someone I can proudly say, he/she is my best friend, the one who understands me the most. And also the one I can understand the most.

Yet the simplest thing is the most difficult thing to achieve.

Kawaii

2011-07-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

I don't know the name of this dog breed. :(

School starting tmr, and I havent touch my homework yet :x
Can't complain though, we have another week of 'holiday' compared to others.

This is me.

2011-07-09T00:20:00.011+08:00

I was happy when i saw this.
Cause I could never put myself to words,
And this, describes me, totally.

Sometimes I just want to feel needed, feel important.
But I'm getting less of this lately.

Sometimes I feel digusted by myself.
Standing in the position of others and reading my own posts.
"She's trying to get people's attention again. Acting emo doesn't gain my sympathy."
Yeah, thats true. I'm trying to get attention.
Even how much I tell myself that it's alright, I can live alone. I don't need anybody to even care about me.
The fact is, I can't.

P.S This is not an emo post. :D

Teehee, I know you're reading this stalker.
I don't know how to express myself well, Butt*....

Sometimes you say you pity me.
And I'm glad that someone at least understands me.
Not because you do, but the willingness to understand is all that matters.
Life's really unpredictable and
It's funny thinking back how we became this close.
I know I often spam you (oops.), but i think you're the only person that probably won't seem to be irritated when i do that and at least have a reply (which talking to hamsters don't....).
And I know I'm really stubborn. Hee. You ask me go out enjoy, I'd rather stay at home at rot.
Something's holding me back, I don't know what but yeah...

OKAY THIS IS GETTING GAY WHATTHEFISH. THIS IS SOOOO NOT ME.

Anyways XIEXIE NI. DON'T VOMIT K! :)

Barriers

2011-07-05T15:10:00.004+08:00

Hi, I'm posting for the sake of someone who keeps saying I never post.
Which I really never do. Okay whatever.

Some MAN just told me yesterday that I had a nickname called 'ice princess'.
It sounded familiar but I've not much memories of it.
Hah!
And I said, 'wah, not bad uh still can be princess'.

I kinda came out with my own theory that a person has 3 barriers to his/her heart.
The first barrier is friends. Meaning to randomly chat at momonts.. More of just like acquaintances.
Second barrier is good friends. To go out and spent time together.
The third barrier is best friends. To share secrets, Stick w/ each other almost all the time.
And that the three barriers have different difficulties to overcome, easy, hard or very hard.

And just happens for me.
The first barrier is the hardest of all.
Most of the time I'd just stick there and wait for people to approach me.
And consider yourself lucky if I'd go over to talk to you.

My second barrier is the not so hard part.
Once I've gained enough courage to speak to you often. I'd start to be as friendly as I can to you.

My third barrier is the easiest. Because my heart's soft. I swear.
Any one who treats me well, I'd treat the person as well as I can.
More like the characteristics of a dog.

Well, I thought I had changed my 'ice princess' kind of attitude.
But not really luh. I'm kinda still like that in MI.
And.. still kind of loner person.
I know I said I'd change. But, it isn't easy.
Sometimes I wished I was as confident as what the horoscopes would say about me - Leo.
But, I'm not. I'd work towards that!

Ps. I'm a Leo, but my characteristics are NOT much like a leo though :(

So if I start talking to you, don't turn me down!
Hah! Or I'd probably never take the initiative to talk to you ever again! :x
Sorry! It's my psychology problem!

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Okay, I'm gonna do something stupid.

People pls play Bandmaster! It's something like o2jam if you play before...

Or a little like auditionSEA too.

Click here to download!

*Warning: 7 parts to dl.*

By the way the game is from philipines.
Needa create acc.
But very easy to create one luh!

If you dl and start playing. Add me! ShulingLuv. :D
Pls don't ignore me once you see the 7 parts :(

Sense of satisfaction.

2011-07-03T15:58:00.004+08:00

I know i haven't been updating.
But I guess nobody reads so it doesn't matter anyway.
I'll just blog when i feel like it.

I got angry w. myself yesterday, i know its funny.
I just felt that I don't have the ability to take care of the hamsters.
I don't have the money to even provide them a safe and clean environment.
Not to even mention the time to maintain their cages.

I'm even angrier that actually I had the money.
But I spent it on other things few days ago.

I don't know why.
But being able to takecare of them based on my own abilities is like a kind of happiness.
A sense of satisfaction that no other things can bring me.
Seeing them happily getting into their cleaned cages and adapting to their 'new' environment just makes me feel all the hard work is worth.

I guess there's really too many of them alr.
It's really amusing how i can get angry with my myself, my dad, my mum but never with them.
It's like they're my weakness, my soft spot :D

:)

2011-04-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

I constantly tell myself, never to cry for those who doesn't care for me.
Cause they won't know I do.
Even if they do, they won't do a shit about it.
Fuck yeah, its reality.

I'm not going to think of all the sad things anymore.
Gonna live my life happily.
I'm just gonna smile thru, and it'll soon be gone.
Emo shuling is away. (For good, hopefully)
Cheerful shuling is here! :)

So, emo thoughts, fuck offf !
PMS, screwwwwwww you k.!

...

2011-04-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

I feel so ugly...

Blog as dead as me ):

2011-04-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

Muahahahah, I dug this pix outtttt...
Pix from like centuries ago!

I'm sickkkkk.... ):

Okay, I know I've been like advertising it. Hehe.

But I really hate being sick.

Yet I don't wanna give school a miss, partly cause I'm lazy to get MC.

Wait like damn long only....

I've been studying hard lately, Me very good girl :)

But still ain't doing well for tests, don't know why.

It's kinda frustrating y'know!

Maths test tmr.... Don't fail plssssss..!

Baby Goh :)

2011-04-09T23:25:00.011+08:00

Hehe, Intoducing....BABY GOH! :)

One Month Me.
HAHAHA, NINJA TURTLES!

10 Month Me
Looked really tiny here!

Wooops, :x

BARBIE DOLL ?!?!

I can do split!

See! Last time I so white.
Dk why now become so tan. ):

Irritating brother! Haha, My facial expression is priceless manz.

I think it's during Cny.

Australia @ Pri 3. The only thing I remembered was that,

The Macdonald's at Australia doesn't serve Chilli sauce. Rofl.

...

2011-04-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

To tell you the truth, I don't know what to post.
But I should update my blog somehow. So...., Here am i.

Okay, It's weekends. And I'm stucked at home all day. And probably tomorrow too. So, yup. Planning to complete homeworks tomorrow, so... It shouldn't be a rotting day!

I've realised one weird habbit of mine lately. I like to walk to hamster cages secretly and like stalk them. Cause their sleeping postures are like soooo cute!

Mum brought Macdonalds back for me so... I'm OFFF. :)

:)

2011-03-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

Love this song !

Love!

2011-03-11T21:44:00.003+08:00

Hamster_Shuling <3

I made this cage!

Pix of <3!

Eh?! Got photographer! Take pix, take pix! *Pose*

Mummy, where are youuuuu ? ):

*Grrrrr!*

Why the water like nvr come out like that ?!?!

Potential Model :)

If you ever wondered how to skip school, this is how to.

Spreads hands and leg wide apart!

*Drooling....*

I must find my treasure!

Hump! Ignore you, *back face each other*

Emo baby.

Ouh, I've got a visitor!

If you're wondering... Yes, he is hanging.

Homework ?!

2011-03-10T21:10:00.001+08:00

I have time to post naoz, but not to do my Economic's essay homework!

And it's due tomorrow. Thinking of handing it up after the holidays.

But..., I shouldn't be behaving like that since I'm preparing for A'lvls right ?

I just don't have the motivation to complete my essay. In a dilemma.

I'm starting to like going to school! But hate going to lessons..

Cause there's always fun people at school who makes it interesting!
But there's always homework for me to do!

Considering whether to go for NUS open house on Sat w/ my classmates, my dream school yo!

I seriously need to bond more with my class!

I was hungry and I'm still hungry. Cause my mum haven't started cooking yet.
I'm waiting for my delicious dinner!

Looking forward to weekends for a good rest!

Temporary Goodbye.

2011-03-04T16:39:00.001+08:00

Gave myself a holiday today, woke up @ 7:37am!

Wanted to cab to school, but cfm late, so.. dropped that idea and went back to sleep!

Weekends are finally here, I can have a good break.

Er..., Maybe I still have to study fr test.

But yupz, a temporary goodbye to boring school life!

I feel like a clown, and i hate it, alot.

Maybe I'm just thinking to much. :)

Stressed out ):

2011-02-25T19:52:00.003+08:00

I really don't know what's wrong with me lately.
Feeling very stressed out.
Maybe because of the school,
Or because I've been sick fr so long that it's affecting my mood...
Forget it, I'm so gonna enjoy this weekend!
It's time fr me to enjoy k!
Let's hope I won't be put on aeroplane!

Wanna go to a haircut soon!

Okay, I'm hungry. Lol, shall go eat! :)

Regent days,

2011-02-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

I seem to like 陈奕迅, Eason Chan's music lately.

Found his voice kinda nice, soothing. :)

Okay, this is kind of random!

I'm happy to see you happy.

Just came home from steamboat!

Was reluctant to go in the first place.

Cause I really felt like rotting @ home, doing nothing.

But well, still went anw!

We really should have more 4-8 outings in the future!

And I really want to go back to Regent's 4-8 classroom.

I really miss those days.

Even though I was kinda anti-social, but at least I enjoyed the moments.

After Cross Country, @ Jp!

Last few day of school.

Dinner @ Farmmart

@ 4-8!

Lot 1 Rooftop Garden!

4-8!

Study date!

Sakae!

Study date!

BUNS DAY!

SWIM!

GRAD DAY!

2-6 <3

Regent Fitness!

X-Country

HAHA, SPECIAL DAY ?!?!

Hotel 626!

Wheee, Water balloons

Fitting room!

Somehow failed shots! :)

SS LESSON!

BK!

Mango Kakigori!

Sakae!

Shifu's forfeit. Our wall paper for 1 day or 1 week ? :)

I look so tiko!

ECP!

V'day.

2011-02-13T16:45:00.006+08:00

Tomorrow is Valentine's day.
For couples, It's their happiest day on Earth.
For singles, It's just any common Monday.
For me, I've nothing to expect for. ~~Cause the one I'm expecting, will never ...Plus I'm never good enough for you.~~ Promise me, you'll be happy forever, k ?

I'm down with a flu. ):
Throat hurts alot nao. Hope I don't lose my voice tomorrow.
Nose is blocked too. It's hard to fall asleep at night y'know.
Urgh, I hate being sick.

So..., after today I'm gonna be a nerd already.

School..!

2011-02-11T22:01:00.001+08:00

I saw this on Facebook's likes.

Studies say 90% women don't like men in pink T-shirts
IRONICALLY
90% Men in pink T-shirts don't like women.

And I'm that 10% of women! HAHAH.

Okay, I know that's freaking random. :D

So, school curriculum's starting on Monday.
And I'm getting nervous knowing how hard the syllabus is!
Nevermind, I'm going off naoz. Bye!

And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.

2011-02-09T01:23:00.005+08:00

I really wonder whats wrong with me today.
I want to talk to somebody, but i guess... Nevermind.

School's very boring, and we haven't got any clues about our class posting yet.
This week is sure to be a long and slow one.
With all the (crap) talks and bridging programmes.
I'm more lookiing forward to next week whr school life really starts. <:

Btw, I'm into Modern Dance! Hahah.
Omgz, I'm so gonna die there with my uncoordinated limbs.

Pictures taken on 3rd day of CNY & Sunday.

Okaym I know my legs are fat.

Happy CNY!

2011-02-05T02:29:00.005+08:00

Happy Rabbit Year!

A personal rabbit here for you, lol.
Take it or leave it.

Okay, I know this is kinda late but uh, whatever.
I haven't been posting fr a long time.
Simply no mood ):
HAHAHAH, Cause my school's orientataion is tooooo boring alrrrr. BOOOO!

So, CNY was kinda boring for me.
Cause there's no gambling fr me, yet.
Maybe tmrrrrr. Excited!!!

Btw, I am SOOOOO looking forward to school's official opening.
I don't know why either.
Well, this time I'm not gonna sway off my path to success anymore.
Studying is no life..., But i'm so gonna make my life that way.
So, JCs is just continue suffering..., saw it somewhr, I forgot whr.

Naoooz, SPAM PIXXXXXXX.

I like thisssss :)

I have double eyelid here. HAHAH.

Shop, Shop And More Shop!

2011-01-25T01:18:00.004+08:00

It's rather late naoz. I'm going to make a short post and off i go. :)

Wednesday,
Went shopping @ Bugis w/ Qiaohui

Thurday,
Seoul Garden + Kbox!
Its been some time since we went kbox. Cause its so ex!
Its getting cheaper these days.
Shall go again another day!

Friday,
Went shopping again @ Malaysia w/ Aunt and Dad.
One happy girl!

Rot @ home on sat and sundays.
Hehe, like no life only.
What a sad life I haveee!

Monday,
Went shopping @ Bugis again.
Had to budget myself, Had not much cash on me.
PAY STILL NOT HERE !
Still waiting, IMPATIENTLY. HA.

Injury

2011-01-18T06:53:00.001+08:00

Yes, Its 6.46 am. And I ain't sleeping yet.
I laid down on my bed at 2am finding myself staring at the wall.
Five mins later, I got off the bed！

Within this time I was constantly listening to a song.
The same song over and over again.
I'm madly in luv with this song. Since very long ago. Like 5 years or more.
I downloaded it, uploaded into my ipod and left it in there to rot.

AWESOME HAIRSTYLESSS!

2011-01-15T00:58:00.004+08:00

I've a sudden urge to cut my hair short. Very short.
Okay, maybe not sudden. I always thought that having short hair is cool.

But somehow, my face is not feminine enough to cut these hairstyles. Am I right ? ):

SPAM PIXXXX! AWESOME HAIRSTYLES! <3

SHOULD I SHOULD I SHOULD I ?

Y-ouloveshuling@bs is presenting to you ....

2011-01-14T00:24:00.002+08:00

HARIBO!

HAHAHAH! My favvvvv! <3

I've just sent in my JAE application form! Hopefully I can get into MI.
Wish that everyone can get into their desired school / poly courses.

I'm gonna go sleep alr, work tmr ._.

Emotions got out of control.

2011-01-11T11:46:00.002+08:00

I know they were caring fr me,
But why do I get so sad when I heard them saying ITE or even retaining ?
Even I thought of that possibility myself.
I just got so upset that I couldn't bear to listen anymore.

My results ain't that bad right ?

I promised myself to never neglect my studies again.
It's time I matured. CAUSE ITS MY FUTURE.

HIWTASYWAFM. BYD.
W, ISSYJOA, C. :)

Acceptance.

2011-01-10T01:04:00.002+08:00

I want someone who can accept all my flaws and love me for who I am.

Not one who love me for who I can be.

I just haven't met the perfect one. Yet.

I miss those days.

Today's the day. 13 hours later, my life will never be the same again. Let's hope my efforts paid off. :)

Went shopping today after work. I borrowed 50 from dad. And I overspent!
But nevermind. I'm happy. I got the things I wanted.
Just not enough. Shall go for more shopping after payday!

I'm only 16, not AUNTIE ! ):

2011-01-02T00:26:00.007+08:00

Uh, my big nose ! ):

I wear like the triads everyday I go to work, lol. All Black!

I tied this bun style above to work fr today and also few days ago.
(1st pic, not so clear. :x)
After today, I'M NEVER GONNA TIE IT AGAIN !

Here's the story :
My customer wanted to know the waist measurement of the shorts.
So I brought the measuring tape to them. And attend to the other customers.
Then this little boy came over and shouted. "AUNTIE! NI DE MEASURING TAPE !"
It means Auntie, your measuring tape as he passed it to me.
OMGAWD. I so heartbroken can. I didn't know I really look so 'Auntie' in it. ._.

Well, I'm probably gonna spend another week working and I'm quitting ! :)

BTW, I HAVE A FAT TUMMY. I WANNA SLIM DOWN. ANY WAYS ? LOL.

New Year

2011-01-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

It New Year nao, but I don't have the feeling of excitment anymore suddenly.
Maybe I'm just too tired to enjoy this joyous occasion.

I'm worked today till 9.30, and I'm working till 9.30 tmr too. How fun ~
Gotta sleep early and wake up @ 10.30 am tmr. ):

I don't know why I grow reliant on people so easily.
I must learn how to be independant !
Hahahah, I know I'm random.

And I'm so fat. I wanna start jogging w/ my dad someday until I slim down !

1st day!

2010-12-30T00:20:00.004+08:00

Today's the first day of my job. Alone. :/
It wasn't as tiring as I expected !
Leg hurts. And I almost died of hunger!

I woke up @ 11. Prepared, and off to work.
I skipped breakfast. And I didn't eat during lunch.
Caused everyone brought lunch boxes. ): And i didn't.
Survied only on Green tea I bought.
I ate only at 11pm. ): I'm sure to lose weight.

Am i thinking too much ? Or feeling too sensitive ?

Christmas was over, and the New Year is coming !

2010-12-28T02:18:00.026+08:00

Overdued Pix.

Was feeling down fr some issues.
And it took me some time to get over it.
I should not keep dwelling on the past and look forward!

Still, once again thanks Jonathan Lian fr me cheering up!
I'm a happy banana nao, HAHAHA!

Caught Gulliver's Travel w/ the tall guy and his friend yesterday.
It was nice. (Y)
Btw, I know I totally suck at jubeat. And I'm one chi-dun girl :/
Enjoyed my day anw.!

I'm starting to work tmr. I know its kinda too late.
But its just enough time to earn me some pocket money I guess.
Working @ Bugis OG - Surfers paradise. <:
Yay!
After earning $$, I swear I'm gonna spend a 100bucks shopping like madddd !

2011 is gonna come soon!
I know its like 5 more days, but I'm so excited!
Its gonna be a new life fr me!
I want a change.
I want to be more cheerful.
I want to be more confident in myself.
I want to be less anti-social.
I want a new circle of friends. ( Not losing my currrent one ): )
I want a brand new me.

Piority

2010-12-14T22:24:00.011+08:00

IGNORE MY CRAP HERE. :)

Have you ever felt that you treated someone as your piority yet you were only an option to them ?

Yes, I felt this way. I always tried to treat people as well as possible.
When people asks me for help, I do my very best to fufil them.
I got the appreciation from them, yup.
But that doesn't increase my place in their hearts.

I know, I've did stupid things. I get emo, because I want attention.
I treat people hot and cold at times, just to tell them how if feels to get treated that way.
So that they (probably) wouldn't treat me the same way again.
But, no. I just got ignored. Like a little child throwing tantrums.
Whats the use ? I was forever an option to them.

They were my priority. In short, they're my everything.
My life was boring, lifeless, hopeless, even the thought of dying came to me before.
Then they made my life better, I did things that I never thought I'd do.
But now, because others are more fun then me, i became less of an option.
And more of a backup option.

I know, I get emo very easily. And it may be very irritating.
I stopped talking, stuff ear pieces into my ears, and went dumb throughout the journey.
Hoping that I could get some attention. At least, let me know I'm important to you.
But no, all I got was coldness. And the others playing among themselves.
I don't know if i wasn't obvious enough or what.
But i guessed if we're real friends, you'd know.
There's sure to be something wrong with me.

(Even if you asked, I would just say I'm fine. I know. But, I've got the care, the concern i need. That's enough to cheer me up. What crap words like 'leave me alone for awhile' doesn't mean what it should mean. It just means that I hope you stay, but i don't wanna beg you. So i figured the further I pushed you away, the more you'd stay.)

Or is it like what one told me ?
There's no real friends in the world. All friends are just fake.
And the joy and happiness we once shared were just self-entertainment.
The only person you can really trust is yourself.
If it really is, then I wished I never existed in this world.

This is the reason why I became a cold person. (Cold princess, hah.)
Because I didn't believed in friendship in the start.

I'm sorry. Sorry for being like a baby here complaining.
I'm selfish, yes. But who doesn't want to feel needed, feel important to others.
You want that too, ask yourself.

F.

2010-12-08T19:19:00.006+08:00

Holiday sucks. Really.
Whenever its holidays I'd get stucked at home.
I tried to talk to people about it,
All they show me is that they're lazy to talk to me.
I've no money on me.
And I can't find a job either.

Great rught ? When you need me you come to me.
When you don't, you cast me aside.
Like I'm just one irritating idiot pestering you. :/

Life has become meaningless.
Maybe I think too highly of myself,
Thinking how impt I was to you,
In the end it all proves that I'm just a fool.

Yes, you can ignore me all you want :D

2010-11-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm sooooooooooo bored.

Been staying at home the past few days.

Can't find a job. :/

Seems like everyone is busy. ):

Freedom; 12 Nov.

2010-11-04T18:34:00.002+08:00

I like this picture, alot. :)

A long break before the next paper comes,
Taking this opportunity to update!

Have been very lifeless lately, not only for me though.
Fret not, I'm gonna wave goodbye to this life soon.
12 Nov, ^^

Kinda disappointed with my performance though.
Jc, getting further away from me naoz.
Sigh, life doesn't always go the way you want it to.
I'll still look forward anw. :)

Lucky Day!

2010-08-18T17:05:00.003+08:00

It has been a lucky day fr most of us, I guess.
Maths paper 1 was kinda easy. Hopefully able to score.
Then MT results release, I passed! (I used to fail kay. :/)
And Oral turned out fine!

Phew, Should go study fr tmr's exam alr. :D

I think you're damn freaking shameless.
One day you're confessing to a girl,
with all the sweet talks and crap.
and the next day,
You're in a relationship with another one.
Please, don't think yourself as that attractive, thank you.

Sweet 16th.

2010-08-06T16:03:00.007+08:00

Happy B'day to myself! :)
Looking forward to watch NC16's. Roflmaoooz.
Thanks to everybody who wished me once again!

I believe in Karma :)

2010-07-30T21:30:00.005+08:00

Got back my wallet:) Thank goodness.
Everything in intact, except money's stolen.
Lucky I've only got a few dollar coins inside.

I believed in karma. You make mistakes, you pay for them
You're kind, Your kindness will be rewarded. So...,

Whoever returned it, god bless you.
Your kindness will be repaid.

Whoever who stole it, Thank you too.
Cause you let me know, I've got awesome friends who care.
(Which I was probably too blind to even know know that.)

I can't put the blame on others, I know I'm careless.
I left it there and invited them over.

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People may think that, It's special being mixed blooded.
To others, idk. But to me, NO I DON'T LIKE IT.
It's like being in the middle of two different races, cultures, beliefs.
And you've to choose one of them.
If you've chosen one, You have to completely ignore the other.
But under circumstances, Can i really ignore ?

Seriously, I've been living in guilt.
I try to convince myself that its fine,
And that other chinese are doing the same thing.
SO WHY CAN'T I ?

But, whenever i run into elders on the street,
(And the recent visit to geylang for New Year's stuffs.)
Or my Mum's friends, They'd glare at me.
Just because I'm wearing shorts ?
It'll affect me alot. But, that's me, my life.
If I had to change, then what's the point of living ?

I learn & speak chinese, I've only got chinese friends in actual fact.
The others are probably just aquaintance
And, I really want to be a normal chinese like anyone else.
But I ain't one. ):

Lost Wallet

2010-07-29T18:51:00.001+08:00

"Stash your wallet. Today will go well if you have no financial dealings with others."

That was today's horoscope for leos. How true for me ):
Lost my wallet.
Any kind souls who saw my wallet, PLEASE RETURN ME !

Laptop spoilt?

2010-07-09T14:26:00.003+08:00

Blog is dying soon. ):

Have been rather busy lately and I hardly have anytime to post.
Homeworks are piling up like shitsxzxzxz.
Need to clear them asap before another new batch comes.

Using computer to post, so no pictures.
Plus, i think my laptop spoil. The screen got problem alr la.
Some e-diot dropped it lo, me think. >:

Go straight home after school to do homework everyday. :)

I'm out of words alr, bye.

I'm trying to keep away from you. Am I being dumb ?

STUDY!

2010-06-27T20:08:00.006+08:00

"天将降大任于斯人也，必先若其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。"

I've been slacking too much this holiday.
I need to start studying from tomorrow onwards !

Msia Shopping!

2010-06-26T02:54:00.002+08:00

Me luv this photo. :)

Woke up as early as 0900 today.
Raining heavily, plus only 3 hrs of sleep, totally cannot wake up.
Prepared and left home @ 10 to Kranji Mrt, bused to Msia.
Eat, Shop, Eat, Shop, Eat, Home. Growing fat soon!

Bought 3 tops and 1 dress fr myself. 2 tops fr Mum (She doesn't like it lo, i think D:), and some food.
Lucky my uncle came and fetched us. If not, too many things to carry alr!

I like shopping @ City Square! Coz the salesperson won't kajiao! :D
Rushing against time, if not can buy more! (Shiok, coz not i pay ma.)
Shall go there again someday!

School starts the day after tmr. Sianzzz ):
Plus I haven't done any studies the whole hol, MATIIIIIII!

Lifeless. _|_

2010-06-18T12:05:00.004+08:00

Grabbed from fb.

Shabushi > FarEast > Isetan > ZhiQuan's B'day > Home.

I was so tired yesterday that I slept at 12 plus.

Seriously, I wanna know how long do you want to tie me by your side.
I didn't went out this whole hols except the chalet I went with you.
Just one day out and you're nagging at me like mad.
What is this ? I hate it when you give me that damn attitude.
Like I've done something very wrong by going out with my friends.

I feel so lifeless kay.

Holidayholiday! (L)

2010-06-11T18:00:00.004+08:00

Hoho! Posting one last time before I go to chalet tmr!

Had oral exam today, totally nervous. Overall was fineee. (:
School today was veryveryvery tiring.
I gotta stick out my eyeballs big so that I don't fall asleep.

After today, It's officially my holiday! A long awaited one though.
Today I'm gonna go shopping & get lots&lots of stuffs.
And a hair cut too probably. ( A very long awaited one too. Couldn't find time. ): )
Today surely pocket one big hole!
Nevmind, worth it.!

I love busy holidays. So anybody going out, PLEASE JIO ME! Tqtq! (:

PS: I'm so looking forward to shabushabu! (Y)

Bye, Sadness. Hello, Happiness.

2010-06-10T18:56:00.009+08:00

MY OILY FRINGE ! :|

Hi people, posting again. (:

I'm very happy these few days, but I'm sure it's gonna end soon.
Maybe I should just remain as happy mood as I am naoz,
and not to think of other STUPID things lur.

Had fun with didi for the past two days, he really very high lor.
Very cute! (L)

Went to lot just naoz to get Mummy's prezzie w/ Xinen.
I can't imagine how did I ever mistook today as the 14th ?
I spent 23$ on them. Wanted to get 50$ stuffs, but I'm saving fr iPhone (:
Had a long chat with Xinen today, made me realised that: I'm actually in the same situation as her.

To you:
(if you know who you are, if you don't forget it.)
You really are lucky. That's all I can ever say.

To myself:
I probably just got to stop thinking so much. I must maintain a neutral mood, where nothing esle that happens to me will not affect my studies.
Try to keep that feeling away for a moment. I can't afford to be emotional naoz.
Whenever you feel down: Close your eyes and take a deep breath, you'll feel much better.

To Xinen:
Thanks being my listening ear, haha. It is certainly a consolation to me that I'm not the only one in this situation la. At least I won't feel so guilty for being so bad. (: That reaction's probably just a natural human reaction ba!
And I try not to think so much alr kay, Hee (:

You failed.

2010-06-06T20:43:00.002+08:00

You think you really understand your daughter & son ?
You think you understand what's on our minds ?
The truth is, you don't.

You always want people to do things the way you want it to be,
Not considering the feelings of other people.
You treat your family like this, you treat your colleagues like this too.
That's the main reason people don't like you, backstab you.

You get angry/sad as and when you like huh.
Don't even care if it even affects your family's mood.
Sometimes I really want to leave this fuckedup family.
Why must I hold on to it like this ? Fuck.

PTCCCCC.

2010-05-26T22:19:00.010+08:00

Oh, hi peoplez. Ignore my previous post kay.
I just kinda hate myself for being so forgetful.

Well, after all these up and downs. I thought, WHY AM I THINKING OF ALL THESE SHIT ?!
I should be putting in all my effort and BLAZE FORTH TO O'LVLS.
(Hah, aren't I a faithful regenite ?)
This is another motivation post.
Also, a announcement that, I won't be posting so often after this post. (:
I'd be studying so hard, that I forgot what my name is alr. (:
And after today. (Okay, maybe not.) I'd be living a after-school-straight-away-go-back-home kind of life.

Well, PTC tmr. Diezzzz. Nevermind. I've done my preparation.
As in, I done all my goal settings and stuffs. Checked out on some poly courses too.
Done reflection and I know what I srsly need to do now.
All i need is that study mood to turn on, and the pressure to be there.
(PLEASE GOHSHULING.SBSG, DONT GIVE IN THIS TIME ROUND. THIS IS PROBABLY MY LAST CHANCE.)

Next thing I've got to do is to plan timetable.
But now is studying chinese time, (:
Hopefully I can score a pass or better.

Ohya! I need to do one very impt thing. That is to quit my afternoon sleep. ):

Byezzzz.

Just before I clicked 'PUBLISH POST' I heard cats(baby? I not sure.) crying sound. Heng got poeple around. If not I'll be freaked out. Why do I always hear, see, feel things that I shouldn't ?
There it goes. -.-

Byez once again.

):

2010-05-25T16:32:00.009+08:00

School was boring, MORE boring than before. ):

Fuck me, I forgot to bring my keys out today.
And serves me right for getting myself stuck outside my house today.

Was having a damned bad mood just nao after school. I sprint out of school, and tried to get home as fast I could. My legs hurt, but I didn't border much.
Realising that I've forgot my key, made me even more fedup.
I tried calling my family, none of them pick up my calls.
I tried messaging people, asking if any one of them were free to acc me till someone gets home and open the door for me. None of them were. Some, I didn't even border asking. I don't want to seem like a pest, waiting for someone to pity me or whatsoever.

Fuck this feeling. I waited. Waited till my brother came back.
This period of time, I've been thinking. And I knew, I've never been happy before.
I've never been satisfied w/ my life. I just want to be NORMAL. Yet i feel people treat me like I someone weird or what. (I BROKEDOWN RIGHT AT MY DOORSTEP.)

Y'know ? That empty feeling deep down in my heart is killing me slowly.

Yes, I may look unfriendly. I may be unfriendly at moments. That's because I'm thinking of how to reply, to present to everyone the best of me. I don't know how to socialise. I don't like to take the initiative. Cos' everytime i do, I'll be put down by something.

Friends come and go. All I wish is that I can have someone to be there for me when I'm in need.

If I had the choice of whether to live or not, I would choose not to.
If I had the courage to end my fucking life, I WOULD.

Sharks, It's lizardssssss.

2010-05-22T08:31:00.014+08:00

A ~~FUCKING~~ LIZARD SCARE ME

JUST NAO @ 4AM !!!!!!!!!!

I SWEAR, I COULD HEAR MY HEART

BEATING LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW.

(IT WAS DAMN LOUD.)

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Naoz is 09:55:55
& I saw another

~~FUCKING~~ COCKCROACH.

How much more suay can I be ? I'll probably hate insects, forever!

Plus, was that what my premonition was trying to tell me ?
Or, the worst is at the back ?!

Worst journey home.

2010-05-18T23:41:00.012+08:00

"It was the worst journey home from school ever."

The moment I took a step out of school, headache strucked me like lightning.
I walked on, with the intention of reaching home fast. Headache, dizzyness, I felt like fainting.
I had blurred vision too. Lucky me, reached home safely. Bathed and drank lots of water.
Before it gets any worser, I tucked into my bed and slept. UNTIL NOW >.<

Got back results. I expected those. I needed those. I knew I couldn't get good results.
That feeling, really sucks ttm. When you've put in effort, and all the effort doesn't show in your work. (Maybe its just not enough.)
I need that as a motivation to study for O'lvls.
That feeling was similar to the time when I got my PSLE results. I've only got myself to blame.
I knew I could do so much better, but I didn't. I srsly need to buck up ya.
I mustmustmust keep that feeling in me, I need that stress (!!!)
(No more half study half watching tele please.)

Finally a rest.

2010-05-08T00:42:00.005+08:00

My hair's in a mess. :P

I've been tired ttm these few days. I don't understand why either.
I haven't been doing much, but i keep feel like sleeping. Argh, fuck it lor.
(Btw, I just woke up not long ago, I'm sleepy again!)

All I can say is, exam period really sucks.! ):

Me want go play L4d2 liao, baibai.

New playlist! (:

2010-05-03T23:04:00.010+08:00

Lameshit me go buy those balloons (or whatever you call them) to play. No choice, too boring alr!

Added a playlist. Alot of old songs added in. Idk why I think they're like so nice, (:
Trying to study these few days. It was a half success, half failure.
I managed to study, But failed to meet my goal. Will have to mug hard the next few days!

Iron Man 2 yesterday, It was rather alright. Nothing fresh, ):
Great right? Exam coming still can go midnight. -.-
Budden it's like months since I last caught a movie ley. Nobody watch with me, lol.
):

Almost-done physics, almmost-done chemistry. That's all I've done btw.
I'm dead, right ?

~~( Wanted to post pictures, tons of them overdued on my phone. BUT THE BLUETOOTH CONNECTION IS DYING ON ME! So...(: )~~

Bye.

I'm wondering if you're thinking of me just as I'm thinking of you. (:

No revision yet! ):

2010-04-27T20:55:00.011+08:00

Everyday's like so tiring nowadays. And to think that I didn't get anything into my head!
I haven't done any revision, no nothing at all. My studies are screwed.
Why did it turn out like thisssssss! Omg, I'm so disappointed with myself. (HA!HA! YOU DESERVED IT.)
Okay, now MYE is in like 3 days time. WTHHHHHH! I can prepare to flunk :D

Life's as boring as ever.
Except that I can see you (almost) everyday! :D

All i wanted to say was, I hate it when people look down on me. D:
And tellya what. I agree w/ webster (the study camp person, lol) It feels shiok whenya fucking proved that person wrong!

Flag Day!

2010-04-24T14:12:00.005+08:00

Woke up @7.30 to get prepared, And off i go to school for Flag Day.

It was much more tiring than i expected. But it was rather worth it.
A sense of satisfaction fills my heart. Never knew I could be this useful. :D
Thinking back, I find myself stupid for walk all over YewTee. -.-
When i could actually stand in one corner.
Walked to yt, community centre, walk until Unity sec, Limbang and walked rounds&rounds.
I think I ask many people repeatedly lor.
But I'm still happy! :D (with my crooked mouth, smile too much alr.)

Didn't take pictures, forget! D:

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Friday, Cross country.

Didn't actually intend to run. Still, I did run abit.
But I dk why ley, i sweat like siao. ):
Then to jp, for pizza hut. <3

Not, not until...

2010-03-24T21:00:00.005+08:00

I won't be posting for a long time.

I seriously need a major change in my lifestyle.
I'm here but who knows ?
Fuck, I hate it.
I hate myself being emotional for such little things.

ydobonemroferehtrevesawohw.

The end.

2010-03-09T18:13:00.005+08:00

Yay, today marks the end of the tiring workshop.
Though tiring, It's like not bad lah.
A lil bit motivated. :D
At least I know I've got to stop procrastinating and start my revision (!!!)

Omfg, you know I today almost cry out lo, wthwthwth.
The story sibei touching. Somemore the sound so loud, the speaker talking also loud.
Dw listen also cannot ah! I keep tahan lor, heng ah. (If not very paiseh, lol.)
Overall, I kinda dislike Freddy, and I think Webster's fine. :D

I've got my new bag btw. Yay, no more crack bag!

No pictures, like boring only.

Kay, bye. LOL.

~~I be shouldn't thinking of this now, studies are more impt, aren't they ?~~

BagBagBagBag !

2010-03-07T23:28:00.005+08:00

30 minutes before another busy week comes.
I'm just gonna post, before I get too lazy to.

Another bored day today. What more can I expect.
I can't find anyone to chat, nor anyone to go out w/.
Ha! Like pathetic only. ):

Yesterday's, 060310
Went JP in the afternoon. A bag caught my eye.
It cost freaking 60$. But i think i regret not buying.
My current bag is like shit now. (Wlao, the skin crack like nobody's business.)
But it's not like I'm going to use it for long. Maybe only 6 months or so.
WHY WASTE?
I'm saving $$$. I wanna save 500$(or more) for me to spend like szb when o'lvls over kay.

Friday's 050310
Tired like shit. D:

I forgot clean about the day after friday. lol.

P.S. I'm still thinking if I should get that bag.
(Phahaps I can beg my mum to buy for me ? :D)
P.S.S I need to get my beauty sleep naooooooooooo !

很想和你在一起 x3

2010-02-28T20:41:00.006+08:00

Stayed @ home and rot today, and I watched two shows.

花田喜事2010;All Well Ends Well Too & 很想和你在一起;Happily Ever After
I like '很想和你在一起' alot. Four words to describe: nice, nice, very nice!

Kay, It's not gonna long post. I haven't done any of my homeworks, gosh!
I gogogo do my homework kay.

我们是不是不可能的 ?

Tmrw, Last day of common test !

2010-02-23T15:40:00.006+08:00

I'm posting again ! You happy ? Rofl.
I decided to post since I have the time now.

Schooled today, History common test.
I'll surely flunk it, just see fail by how much only. (Omg, I scared single digit sial!)
I only have myself to blame, Hahah.
Don't have the mood to study at all, Great huh.

Add. Maths and POA common test tmrw.
I want to do well, pleaseeeeeeeeeee.!
I'll study more on Add. Maths tonight coz' I've alrd studied POA.
(I was doing POA on the day before Physics common test. Kind of regretting it nw.)

Tiring day! (Every day is tiring. Urgh, crap luh.)
Eww, why do I smell gas ? Is there a gas leak ?
Gotta go check on my stove, :O
Btw, I'm off. Bye.

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Time check: 2327 !

I can't get trigo into my head. HowHowHow ?!
I feel like giving up alrd. (But I can't !)
Tried to relax, then continue. Doesn't work luh, anwy.
Damn shit la. I think maybe not sleeping tonight alr. D:D:D:

Another new blogskin, hoho!

2010-02-21T17:08:00.004+08:00

Aha! New blogskin again!
Reason being I'm too bored.
Not with the previous blogskin, but I really have nothing to do.
So I did another blogskin, which I think it's a success.

Have neglected my blog for 2 weeks plus.
Common tests and homework are driving me crazy.
Hardly had any time and mood to update.

Hah, nerdy me!

I'm not gonna eleborate every single detail.
I'm going to summarise everything I did during this period of time.

Absent on 9Feb, EL Common test, plus no MC! (No retest for me! D:)

Every other common test sucked. (I'll be on the moon alr if I pass.)

My CNY was boring, no point eleborating.

I didn't win any money gambling this year! (Well, I didn't lose either.)

Valentine's day? No valentine, So..., Rofl.

I watched plenty of dramas. (Momo Love, Hi My sweetheart, Autumn's Conterto, K.O.3anguo ... )

I need to get a new pencil case & probably a new school bag soon.

I can't think of anything anymore.
Plus, I feel like playing mahjong!

Bye guys.

Hoho, newblogskin.

2010-02-03T21:21:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I (L) my cute blogskin! :D

Keeping my blog alive, though I have nothing to blog!

Yesterday's P.E is killing me! My leg muscles hurts alot lor.
Esp. climbing up&down stairs, sitting down. urgh, tmd.
I tell you what, I hate P.E to the maxxxxx. D:
(It still hurts naoo. D:)

I've dozens of hw to do, Like so no mood sia. D:
Kayla, bye.

Happy B'day to Angie, (:

2010-01-28T17:05:00.011+08:00

Firstly, Happy B'day to Angie! :P
Hope you've enjoyed your day.

Woke up @ 5am, bathed and left home at 5.50am !
Met up w. SeeHeng, Shimin & Grace at my void deck.
Next to Xinen's. Lastly, to Angie's.
B'day suprise fr her, even though got abit chuanbang lo.
Photos, Ate the cake and off to school.

Damn tired @ the assembly.
But later was tutoring Kersin, Creamball, still can tahan.
POA and I finally fell asleep, nice nap. (But still tired ley.)
I'm such a pig right ? :P

Blahblahblah,

Lessons after school, most of the canteen food are cleaned out.
I reallyreally cannot tahan alr lor! ):
Chem re-test, and I think I'll do soso only lor.

Home right after extra lesson!

See how boring my life is,
Homework, study, school, sleep, eat, shit..
B.O.R.I.N.G.!.

Bai ppl.

CCA Orientation.

2010-01-22T18:01:00.004+08:00

I'm just back from school, eff-ing tired right now.
I shall make a quick post, before I get lazy.

CCA Orientation today, that explains my tiredness.
Went to lot after school, bought tako & back to school.
Ate, and went scraping the floors of Regent. (Stupid stains due to the paint.)
After that, applying thiner to clean it.
Uh, scraping the floors took half my life away.

Down to notice board, sounds easy, but also very tiring okay.
(Position this that, paste this that. Not nice take out paste again.)
Done & off to booth, rested awhile. Then, to advertise.
Went around pasting stickers on people like stupid.
Took boards and did walking ads.
(Sec 1's shun us lor, wth.) They see us immediately change direction, walk away.

No choice, choose the attention seeker method.
I pasted sticker on my cheek, like pikachu, rofl.
(Call me attention seeker all you want, you think I like meh ? Like clown. _|_ )

Finally over, and I'm safe and sound. (:

This is my first time participating in CCA orientation,
Hopefully and Sadly, my last.

Bye!

炫宇VS慧慈

2010-01-11T16:06:00.014+08:00

I didn't go to school today, boredness lo.
I woke up quite late lo, wtf.

Anw, back to posting.
I saw this series of videos, It's quite nice lo.
See people quarrel , rofl.

* skip to 0:50, infront all intro lo.

Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaQEe5KL6X8
Part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMrj9DPLHfs
Part 4: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JlJG1gdnAxw
Part 5: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYIWYj9ALWk

They took wedding photos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Km9QNRbdd0

Just got a call from Mdm Juliana, Alamak~!

First Week of School.

2010-01-08T22:17:00.004+08:00

First week of school, totally sucks.
I think nobody will disagree with me.
New rules have been made, and it's my last year.
(I hate the rules, & I hate the person who made the rules. )
It's only been a week yet I already feel the pressure of O's.
It's like every teacher is repeatedly telling us, O's, National exam...!
I want to do well, I want a good testimonial & I dw to regret.
(This is my motivation post, so when i cmi, I will look at this again!)

I think I need to get tuition soon, (I'm going mad.)

Also, banding seriously sucked.
But since it cannot be reversed, I hope it works.

Arrival of 2010 !

2010-01-01T20:08:00.027+08:00

Byebye to 2009, And say hello to 2010. :D

Year 2010 has arrived, Which also means....
School's reopening sooooon! ):
And I haven't done any homework yet(!!!).

I think these few days, I need to stay at home and study.
Seriously need to buck up on Maths alr. D:
Need to keep myself motivated.

Anyway, just want to say another ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIMIN.

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I forgot about the pictures I said I wanted to post, rofl.
Click on the pictures to enlarge kay.

Aunt's Home

We saw this cute lil boy. He looks so chio right ?

At the park where we had our picnik.

The same park, with Koala Bearrrrr. More (clearer) pictures with Aunt.

To the birdpark, fed them.

See, they'll fly to your hands just for food.

More ducks at the birdpark.

Chocolate factory(!!!). Free tasting, any amount you want!

The totally chio beach, So much unlike Sg.

Finally, My personal favourite....

DONALD DUCKKKKK. I think its like so chio lor.

Back from the Aussie.

2009-12-30T00:43:00.010+08:00

I'm back from Aussie. Does anybody misses me ? :D

I'm not gonna blog on day by day basis,
Cause basically, I forgot I did what on which day. :X:X:X

Reached Australia @ 7am, Good weather.
Like the sky is totally clear, not a single cloud in sight.
It's not cold, not hot.(It's like supposed to be quite hot now lor.)
Like air-con temperature for me.

Shuling & the chocolate factory. Yes, the Chocolate Factory.
It's like omg lor. Everything chocolates.
Choc bar, Choc sauce, Choc milkshake, Choc ice-cream, Choc soap,
Choc marshmellows, Choc body cream.
Plus choice of Milk choc, Brown choc, Dark choc & Super dark choc(70% Cocoa!).
Go supermart, a whole section of chocs. Uh, totally choc paradise.

The beach, totally chio. :D
The sea's blue in colour! and the sand's white.

And, the houses there are like, so shiok one lor.
I mean like, almost ALL the houses look so chio.
Uh, I just feel like living there you know.

Went to visit the koalas, 201% Cute.
I saw a whole family of koalas, one with a baby.(CUTEEEEEE!)

To the bird park, where birds aren't afraid of you.
Fed them, I was afraid to let them eat from my hands thou.
I saw donald duck btw. Another cute creature.
I love the donald duck pics, Cause they're white and super photogenic.

Went shopping. The things there are like so cheap!
Not everywhere, but that particular shopping center.
Things are like $10, $20 okay.
Super nice somemore. I regret I didn't buy that striped jacket.
Didn't buy much clothes fr myself though.
Mum bought clothes like $500 dollars.
Crazy one hor ? But they're nice lah.

Went to the orchards, where there're fruit trees.
My mum insisted on plucking fruits from the trees.
At least her wish came true. Yay.

And of course comparing Singapore's Airport and the Australians,
Singapore is way too much better than theirs. :D

I'm done, A pretty straight foward post.
(You know, if i crap too much. No one will read it.)
I think I'm gonna sleep alr.
Tommorrow got a wedding dinner to attend.

I was hoping you'd talk to me, but you didn't.

Chalet ^.^

2009-12-18T18:00:00.009+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday to Evan & ErnZi.

Planned to go on 2nd day of chalet, but many went on the 1st.
Hahah, even wanted to cab down to chalet at 10pm. But didn't uh.
Stayed up the night till 5, then prepared & met up w. Seeheng & Shimin @ yt.
Like so crazy right ?
Trained down to tanah merah & cabbed down to th chalet.
Arrived @ 8 plus.

Mahjong awhile. After Angie & Grace woke up, my turn to sleep ! :D
Woke up awhile after that.
Met Kersin, & they want go cycle. (Die lor, i thought. Idk how to cycle! D:)
Went back to chalet w. Shimin, while the rest went cycling.

They came back, make the food hot, then eat abit.
Mahjong awhile again, Seeheng played awhile then went to sleep.
(But later she woke up by Shimin's alarm. Lol. )
After that stole plastic bags for making water bomb, dropped at the rooftop of girls room lor.
Clever me (:X), tied a few hanger together managed to get back some.
Went out to zouzou, then tio water bomb when we came back.
Played until whole body wet. Bathed, then start BBQ.
After BBQ, Mahjong/Poker, I drank a lil beer only.
Shimin went to rest, Seeheng & I continued.

Thought we won't sleep that night, but cannot tahan.
Go kaciao people wake up. In the end, Shimin wake up, then we sleep.
Woke up by Shimin & Evan, trying to find Evan's specs. -.-
(Which in the end is in the drawer.)
Washed up, changed. And then left chalet.
Struggled home, had a good rest. :D

Supposed to go Seoul Garden today. But.. I overslept, & woke up only @ 5pm. D:
I super shocked when i woke up. 10 missed calls.
A million sorry's !
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
Seeheng, don't disappointed kay ! :D

Boring long post ~~+ No picture~~. Uh, sorry again !

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Edited @ 21Dec, 0632.

Added picture, currently watching K.O.3anguo!
Super Niceeeeee !
6am, I'm not tired yet.

Dead or, Undead.

2009-12-07T17:59:00.006+08:00

Omg, I look bald, & my pimples disappeared (in the picture only. -.-) & I look white (idiot. -.-)

Seriously, I don't know what to post.
My life is so empty. Urgh!
I'm talking crap just to keep my blog alive.
You can ignore this post actually. (ROFL.)

I'm probably meeting my primary school friends tmr, if nothing crops up.

Bye.

Untitled.

2009-12-01T14:06:00.005+08:00

I'm back, after a week of not posting.
Mum's been sick and has been staying at home.
And I've been stucked at home, acc. Mum to the doctor's fr these days.
Bored machiam want mati y'know. D:

No idea of what game to play, Not much of drama to watch. Uh, sad!
(But I prefer them to load up all, and watch it once & fr all.)
I just hope someone would call me out soon. D:

I might be changing blogskin again someday.
Imma sick of the current one.

I've no idea what to post now, so uh, bye. (:

I wish I could just see you frm afar,
It doesn't matter if you don't notice me at all.

Ruined Holidays.

2009-11-24T06:18:00.008+08:00

I'm thought of having a post first before sleeping.
Cos' my dad's alarm is ringing like nobody business,
I'll have to wait fr him to wake up !

My holidays are totally ruined, is bored daooooooo.
All the events are at the back of my hols, ending of dec.
So, I've to waitwaitwait...!

Hah, I shall cut down on th craps alr la.
Went down to Mum's work place yesterday, to pass her 'Where got ghost' CD.
Then walked back to lot, to meet Jero.
Askaskask, can't get any job at all ! Pekchek.
Btw, paiseh leh jero. All you ask de, I this dan xiao gui don't dare to! (Rofl!)
Thanks alotalotalotalotalot lah !
Couldn't find a job, go home sleep lo. :D

Urm, a overdued pict.

It's blur, but what's written there is, 别写错自己的名字!
FYI, It's my Chinese EOY paper.

I'm thinking whether I should go to Plaza Sing today to get that job. D:

Dead bored.

2009-11-21T05:04:00.004+08:00

I've very bored now, so I'll do some updates.

I've been veryvery bored these days. Sleeping time went haywire.
Been staying awake late nights, til morning.
Sleeping from 8am to 5pm. It's like just nice people's working hours. -.-

At night, play games, blog-hopping, watch tele, eat!
Omg, I'll grow fat soon now or later lah !

Plus, hopes fr jobs are gonegonegone~!
Supposedly working next week or something, But..!
Now whattttttttttt ?!

I wanna go swimming someday. (RANDOM, HAH!)

I'm going to go eat + watch tele. I dead bored right now.
Bye.

Unlucky, superduper.

2009-11-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

I've been quite unlucky lately. D:

Went to the movies yesterday night to catch 2012, quite nice. :D
Lost my ezlink card, hai wo yesterday very worried.
I'm still very worried now. D:
But i got one extra from Dad's wallet. He didn't know.
I really dk what to do lo.

Plusplus, Job will only be available next month.
Probably surveyor, not confirmed.
Still looking around lahs. D:
Please intro if have job, thanks!

I'm off now. Going back to watch K.O.3anguo.
The show's quite nice. :D

Desperate fr a job.

2009-11-13T01:21:00.005+08:00

~~I will edit and put picture into this post later, :D~~

Oh hello, I'm back from MIA. I didn't MIA as long as I expected, lol.
Idk since when, blogging became a habit that I can't live without.

I'm very happy! Tomorrow will be the last day of extended lessons.
Then it's holidays time! My heart's jumping in joy! :D
I'm gonna find a job w. Jero, I'm despo fr one.
Friend is now helping me to get one, thanks! (-.-, you won't be seeing this anw.)
Might be working at Zoo or Ben and Jerry's acc. to what he said.
I hope I can save money in this 5-6 weeks, fr the overseas trip in the 6th week.
($100 - $200? Is it possible ?)

A short post anw, school again tmr.
I never liked going school. (Esp. during the hols, mood spoiler.)

I had more than enough of it.

2009-11-09T00:42:00.009+08:00

Today was the boring-est day of my whole life.
Heh, which day of my life isn't ?
I'll be MIA these few days, I simple don't have the mood to blog anymore.
I feel bad, really. I hate this feeling !
Thats it. Bye. :D

I lost all reasons fr living,
I hate myself, hate the life I'm living.
I need a companion right now, but i saw no one. F.
Why does fate always play tricks with us ? D:

New school rules ?!

2009-10-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

I feeling veh bored now, and will be tomorrow, next week, & the week after next.

Yesterday, new school rules are made open to us, with effect on Jan 2010.
I just don't understand, What fr you wanna make students hate school when it's alr so sucky ?
Now, theres one more reason fr me to hate school.
How I wished I was one of the graduating classes in Regent. D:
But isn't it stupid fr me to neglect my studies fr stupid rules ?!
(P.S. The rules are added by the new V.P. I hate her. D:)

Today was plainly lifeless, Don't know what to do, where to go.
Got back report book, I've only got 2As. Didn't meet my expectations fr 3.
But at least, I've done my best! And I'm so damn proud of it.

It's supposed to be school hols, but extended lessons fr us.
Too free or what ? And, the timing, is no diff from any other school days.
B-O-R-I-N-G !

Crappy post, idk what to post alr. :D

I love YuanYuanDe, very much !

2009-10-28T21:40:00.019+08:00

I look kuku here, but i don't care ! :D

Went Eastcoast Park on Monday, funfunfun! I wanna go again!
Next time, must bring sun block. Rofl...!
We cycled got almost 10km leh! Leg is tired daooooo.
Home at around 7pm. K.O on the bed immediately upon reaching home.
Tio light sunburn, but its all worth while!

Schooled today, boring lessons continue. Got test somemore!
And today dk why all the teachers kan wo men bu shuang.
All come and kp us, D:
Chinese teacher wants me go clb, i tell you i diedie dw lor. TMD!
(Thanks people who helped me persuade teacher not to put me in clb, Luv ya. :D)

I now really holiday mood alrrr, i dw study can anot.
After exams, but the teachers are treating exams as invisible.
At least rest a while, we'll feel better. Siannnnnzzzz.

After school go eat yuanyuande. Hoho, nicenice. So shuang sia.
(I love takoyaki to the maxxx!) & maybe I'll never get sick of it.
Bought presents fr people, library slack, homeeeeee !
Again, nap immediately upon reaching home. (I'm a heavy sleeper, I don't deny, I love to sleep!)

Happy Belated 15th Birthday to

Jean & Nicole! :D

Happy 15th Birthday to

Amanda! :D

Sorry fr th late b'day wishes. Luv ya Three kay. :D

I'm done posting ! :D

Accounting Carnival.

2009-10-24T03:12:00.003+08:00

Hoho, I'm done with my blogskin, rushed it out within today.
I love it to the max, hoho. It's 3.15am now, and I'm wide awake !

School had a POA carnival today. Was reluctant to join in at first, but it was kind of fun.

I like to play praxis(!), vehveh fun. I feel like buying th game home y'know.

And I've got the most money, even though I'm the only one unemployed (no salaryD:) !

Hahehuho !

A short post today, I'm off to sleep alr.

I hate pimples to the extreme !

2009-10-20T16:53:00.007+08:00

Sakae, long overdued. :D
(P.S. Sakae's green tea is unbelievably nice.)

Schooled today, I finally get to see those people I missed. :D
Got back test papers. Everyone was rather emotional.
Coz' we really did put in alot of effort this time.

I failed chinese, to the extend that I might get pulled down of Chinese O's.
I can decide whether I want to take chinese fr my O's or not.
I wanna give it a try though. :D
Passed Physics, A Maths, Social studies, POA. Not with flying colours though.

Decided to forget about the test papers, and go out fr a walk.
W. Shimin, seeheng, jocelyn.
Went to causeway, ate ice-cream ! We had very interesting way of eating, hoho.
Cold storage, milo icecream & cones, then to food court enjoy! :D

I thought my handophone lost on the way, my heart jumped out.
Heng ah, it's with shimin. (You really got me tricked, hah.)
Jocelyn went homeeee.

Did the coloring keychain, which didn't really turned out well,
Hope to do one more next time. (A nicer one please.)

Home. :D

Plus, I've finished 一公升的眼泪. Touching, cried like nobody's business.

& Yup, I freaking hate pimples. Esp, those two on my nose. Ah, suck.

A rather summarised post, coz' i'm freaking tired.
& I wanna sleep now. Yes, now. SO BYE !

How much I wanted you to know, but I didn't have the courage to.

Chalet, Sakae<3

2009-10-18T19:42:00.008+08:00

Thursday,
Last paper on Thursday, POA.
But actually, we've alr had holiday mood since after Wednesday.
I didn't even study for POA Paper 1! Many didn't either, hah.

Went to mahjong after exams, veh shiok wor.
Plusplus, my luck was not bad. :D
Time suddenly passes veh slow for no reason.
Probably we were alr hungry fr SAKAE<3

Friday,
No school. :D The day fr chalet !
I love sitting on lorry, even though it makes me look like bangala. :D
Veh shiok one eh, the wind blow. Hahaha.
Arrived, and i slept the whole afternoon. Till my mum reaches.
Slacking there the whole day.

Saturday,
Suprisingly woke up @ 11am. Bathed and out of our north-pole bedrooms.
Went to see the sea, chio. :D
Actually from the chalet alr can see the sea.
But that stupid construction ship there extra. D:
Played fire with aunty, uncle & father. Hahah, like small lil kids.
Our age adds up to over a hundred but still so childish.
Kids from the other chalet came over to join us. Hah.

BBQ, nothing much though. I didn't get to eat much.
In fact, I was playing with another fire! -.-

Mahjong alot, I ket winning !
One of my aunt even wanted to teach me to see people got zuo pai anot.
Next time phahaps !
I tried to do 13 unions, but i didn't.
Red zhong, and One thousand was ponged by another party.
Still grasp fr hope for the last two tiles but, sadly no !

Sunday,
Home sweet home. So tired that I immediately fell to bed upon reaching home. :D

Long Post !

Not in the mood. Desperate.

2009-10-11T22:21:00.013+08:00

Omfg, I'm supposed to be studying ! How come I'm here posting ley ?

Shitsxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxxzxzxzxzxzxxzxz !

I damn not in the studying mood alr. Coz' I just now thinking of chalet, HA !

Omg, i so excited lah. Seesee, die lah like that. Thinking of playing only.

Plus I see social studies book only alr want to sleep. ):

And I'm pretty frustrated now. Those kind like you feel like you wanna shout your ass off !

Rofl, shouting my ass off is a totally impossible thing anw. :D

I need motivation to study. Please somebody !

Give me motivation to continue to study till this thursday. Then it's PARTY time !

(Hahah, crap uh. The only party time seems like aft O's. D:)

I'll flunk if I continue being such a lazybum.

Okay, I'll be back to study at 11pm. I seriously need a rest.

Probably going to bathe later. To keep myself fresh.

Gonna eat into midnight if i have to !

Who wants to go Chalet ar ?
16th - 18th, Just nice the day aft exam ley.
:D

Laksa <3

2009-10-05T12:05:00.010+08:00

My blog looked dead, doesn't it ?

Hahah, Didn't attend school today. Overslept.
Had stomach pains yesterday night, which kept me running to the toilet 4 times.
It was until 6am that I fell asleep, unknowingly. Woke up around 10.
Slacked the whole morning away, watching tv. (Some stupid old shows playing.)
Probably studying Maths & POA later tonight. Hope I'll have the motivation to. :D

Sunday, 4th Oct.
Whole day wasted at home. Had a good rest though.
Wanted to post, But my phone can't connect to lappy's bluetooth.
Resulting me to be unable to send photo. Then I also lazy post alr, hahaha.

Saturday, 3rd Oct.
Go out, JalanJalan. Rofl. :D

Friday, 2nd Oct.
Met mum at yewtee, ate. Helped mum to do smthing.
Met Xinen, play candles.
Call us kids for all we care! (HAHAH!) Anw, how many years do we have left to enjoy such childish acts ?
Joyce & her brother came down awhile later. Play awhile, xinen left.
Trouble came, the block people come scold us.(LOL!) Asks us to clean up, and we did.
Xinen was lucky to run away, hahah!

Reached home, bathed. (I was sweating like nobody's business.)
Chatted with S. Muahahah, I tempted S with food!
Cos' she say she hungry. Then make until me also hungry.
I Miss You, S! Never get to see you today. D:
Plus, you promised me. Pei me go eat laksa de hor. :D

a. I made this heart. :D (Stole this picture from Xinen's blog. O.O)
b. I tempted S with this picture! (Click on pic to enlarge. Can see the hum oneee!)

What a crappy post !

Drop dead.

2009-10-01T15:40:00.009+08:00

I'm feeling dead tired right now.

I'm making this update a short one ar.

Typing this for the second time alr lor, walao.

I've no time to update these days. (Because it's exam period.)

I've been studying and will be studying for these few days. (Like kena zi bi like that.)

Today is English paper. Totally screwed up. Sucks.

Tomorrow's Chinese. I don't expect anything good anyway. (My cina sucks like shit okay.)

Oh&, During EL Paper 1 today,
I was thinking of what to write and looked up.
Saw Mr Lim like want to sleep alr. Standing up somemore eh!
I can't help it but to laugh. Luckily I forgot about it soon after.

Lot today, played until whole body wet.

Hahah, like kena rain like that.

Then Joce and I go library somemore. (Actually to dry th clothes which I don't think it worked.)

Almak, I think will catch cold one lor.

Blah, I'm tired of school, blogging (and my stupid blogskin) & living.

Can I just disappear ?

Cheated ! D:

2009-09-24T22:19:00.004+08:00

Picture quality sucks.
I totally kena cheat by LG phone's appearance.

School went well.
I understood alot of things today.
Esp. maths. I was pretty confused about trigonometry.
Well, not until today.
Tests tmr, POA & Physics.
I hopehopehope I can do super well for POA lar.
Cos' I finally willing to study POA, don't put me down okay.
Studied physics a while too, but like nothing to study one ley.

Exams coming, omgggggggg. Stresssss !

I going viwawa liao, relieve stress. Laughs.
Byebyebye.

Avoiding isn't a way, i have to find a way out.

Afraid.

2009-09-22T18:10:00.005+08:00

School today, after the three day holidays.
Hari Raya was plainly boring.
Well, how fun can it be without Mahjong, or even poker ?
Hahahah, needless to say, I'm damn addicted to Mahjong. :D

I thought today is gonna be a freaking boring day.
Well, it turns out not to ?
Coz' I finally get to eat, 光明正大-ly. ( :O )

School were as per normal, except that Jocelyn and I decided to study.
Hahah ! I told her, 我会支持你的!
Decided to go for Mr Hasyim's POA remedial.
Then she said, 如果我睡觉的话...
I cut in and say, 我会叫醒你的! (I veh supportive de leh !)
She replied, 你就让我睡吧!
I totally sian diao one de lor.

I don't know if I should study now, or get some sleep
And then study later after I wake up.
But I veh scared I sleep until tomorrow morning. (就好笑了!)
I want to at least have a pass for this Friday's POA test !
Maybe tomorrow going to remedial again, for Poa.

And I'm gonna bring potato chips-y to school tmr. YAY !

I'm going to sleep now i think.
Then to study later. (POA & Emaths & Amaths!)
Bye people!

I don't know, I'm confused. I don't wanna make a mistake in my choice.
My heart melts, but my brain warns me not to. I'm afraid.

Ipod's Mahjong <3

2009-09-17T17:53:00.004+08:00

I look freaking retarded, i know okay.

Hahah, yay. I'm like finally posting.
I've like no time to post one lo, these days.
Coz' i keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.
But, I don't know why you know. I still veh tired. Still want to sleep.
Like pig like that lah, y'know ?

Oral today, sibei jing zhang leh, walao. Coz' the picture lah !
Somemore is Mr. Ng. Hahah, See his face only want laugh.
Still must act formal leh, wtf.

I love the P.E today, veh fun.
Except that it really pisses me off lah. Cb.
Think only sibei angry you know ?
P.S I HATE YOU NOW. :D

Omg, and I like playing Evan Ipod de Mahjong game. Addictive !
I feel like getting his Ipod you know.
Unlike my stupid and useless Ipod. Cost a hundred plus, but it sucks like shit !
Lol, then in class so many people snatching to play one lor.
No doubt, I'm actually despo for it. :D

Lot with Jocelyn after Oral, hahah !
Library for cook books. Omg, the food really nice leh !

&I got back my report book only today, I failed 3 subjects. :D
but I got 3As. (Dk whether want cry or want happy, -.-)

Anyway, I'm talking cock here.
I go play game, doing homework later.
Eat, then sleep.
Muahahahah. I love to sleep. :D

Chalet <3

2009-09-12T20:14:00.005+08:00

I'm back from chalet. And I love it. :D
I'm not gonna eleborate what happened since many others did.
Overall, I enjoyed the chat a few of us had at 2nd night.
We're thinking of the past. (Grow old alr, alamak!)
Hope we can have another clalet next time. ^^
But can I not be the one booking ? (HAHAHA, unless if there's really a need to.)

I'm definately not gonna book Costa Sand Chalet, Downtown East ever again.
It sucks like shit can ? (Their staff give attitude one leh.)
I'd rather book Aloha. Much cheaper, more fun, BETTER SERVICE.

There goes my september holidays.
After the holidays, EOY Exams are here.
Study, Study, Study ! :D

P.S. I LAUGH LIKE HELL WHENEVER I HEAR MICKEY MOUSE LAISA.

Just a short post, Ciao.
Pictures next time, haven't got them.

I'm over you, for real & for good this time.
Bye, love.

I hate myself, fuck.

2009-09-06T17:49:00.009+08:00

Happy Birthday to Xinen,

Happy Belated Birthday to Jocelyn.

I hate myself for having such a sucky attitude.
Fuck, like the world revolves around me when its doesn't.
I'm sorry, really. For those whom I've shown attitude to today.
I'm a lousy person. Maybe I don't even know how to be one.
Why am I always spilling the milk and having to clean it up ?
A thousand sorries won't help, I know.
I suck the most. D:

MURDERER <3

2009-09-03T18:20:00.007+08:00

I'm back from MIA-ing.
Laughs, I'm like only MIA for four days like that.
Actually, I was thinking of closing down my blog.
But this 4 days period proves that I can't leave blogging.
Like it's alr part of my life. So, I'm not.

I'm gonna eleborate what happened today. Like so 'yay!', right ? :D

First lesson, POA. As usual, wasn't listening. (Hahahah!)
I think I at there 发呆 lor.
Next was Maths, I did listen okay.
I was drawing graph. Drawdrawdraw.
Then P.E, Thought we had photo taking, but in the end, poseponed.
P.E teacher never come, I want play captain's ball de ley !
So, stayed at class and played Murderer.
Hahah, Fun sial.!
Recess, then MT. That stupid tcher guailan us again.
The more you want guailan us, the more we guailan back okay! (CB!)
A Maths, spent time watching movie, Sinbad.
Gah, I admit it's a lil childish, I'd rather play Murderer. HAHAH.
But, better than doing other things. (SO UNLIKE THAT CB CHINESE TEACHER RIGHT ?)
Then assembly. After singing school song, got one paper at my butt there. (!)
HAHAH, happens to belong to DaoHong's class de. -.-
Anw, we played murderer again.
Walao lor, teacher keep looking. If not can continue play. (Addicted alr siah.)
Chatting, and they keep bully Evan, laughs.

Finally school ends.
Went to ask MsKoon about the work attachment. See alr, also know no hope.
So threw the paper away, HAHAHA. (Wasting their resources.)
JP to buy KFC, then to Jocelyn's house.
Saw didi, he so shy today.
Then played Mahjong, Me & Jocelyn keep win lor.
Hahahah. Funny thing is, Seeheng never win leh!
Like so miracle, Laughs.
Homed after that.

P.S. I LOVE TO PLAY MURDERER, I WANT TO PLAY IT TOMORROW !

Mia from blogging.

2009-08-30T17:25:00.008+08:00

Haven't been posting for 5 days.
Argh, I just don't have the mood to.
Plus, there's really nothing to post.
Actually I don't even know what I'm going to post now.

Cause my life = No life. (HAHAHAH!)
Anyway, I'll be ... ...
M-I-A FROM BLOGGING .
I'm feeling like so freaking emo right now, and i'm lazy to post alr.
Dots right ?
Ciao.

P.S I feel like eating Mango Ice-cream lo, :/

You lift me so high up above the ground.
Then let me fall as if it was a bottomless pit.

Happy B'day, LumAhHeng ^^

2009-08-25T00:03:00.009+08:00

Firstly, I wish LumAhHeng a Happy Belated B'day. :D

Wanted to post yesterday, but fell asleep. -.-
One year older alr ah, don't be so childish lah.
Still throw cake at me hur.
For that, you owe me a Kinder Breuno. (Yay.! :D)

Got back Chemistry & A-Maths paper today.
Although abit sucky, but I managed to get a pass.
(Which I didn't even thought I would get a pass.)
E-Maths tomorrow. I've prepared for the worst alr. :D

I don't know why I was superduper tired today.
Slept in class, had a pretty bad mood.
Gah, I also don't know what's the hell wrong with me today uh.

After school had Mahjong at my place as usual.
But something unusual happened - Hahahahah, we played fr a while only.
Phahaps all of us are plain tired.
Had a great sleep after they left.

Countdown to chalet: 15 days.!
I'm freaking hell excited alright.

It's no one's fault, It's just that I don't have what it takes to.

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Replying tags here, for those without tagboard. Laughs.

Yingyi: Hahah, thanks alot. :D
seeheng!: Still dare say hur ? I never make you, you make me. D: Hahah.
Angie. :): Relinked, :D
JERODINE: Thanks! Why you private blog sial. D: I want read your postttt !